posted by IVAN CHESNOKOV @ 06:49PM on August 07, 2012
As some of you may already know, I've been banned from TLD. Since I [CANNOT PROTEST] the ban and Atreus removed me from Steam, I have no other recourse, really.
With most bans, the reason protests exist is because the person made a genuine mistake that they will make an earnest attempt not to repeat, and are sorry for having done so. In this case, it's just another example of a pattern of behavior that you've shown for a very long time now. Nothing was going to change
Regarding the straw that broke the camel's back: When your name is "It's just period blood" and you sound like a guy, and you talk a lot in voice chat, you're asking for it. Atreus overstated the incident in his ban report when he called it "harassment". Harassment is something that is ongoing or repeated. I called them on it, they got more annoying, so I ignored them and it was done, Ten minutes later Atreus gives me the admin warning, well after the incident was over and done. When I tried to defend myself, he told me to drop it, as if I was giving him attitude. This is a man who doesn't like to be told he's wrong, which brings me to my next point.
So, having a somewhat unusual handle, happening to speak in voice chat, and being born with a voice that isn't particularly feminine, gives one carte blanche to call them a trap/call them a man, even when asked to stop? To be quite honest, this reminds me of the people that say that an attractive woman who has on a skimpy outfit is "asking for" anything that comes her way.
Regarding Atreus, and the admins in general: Quite childish. I think the issue here is not that I am detrimental to the community, it's that the admins can't stand the regulars. They're better than the regulars. Despite some regulars being the biggest donors, "You don't own the server, we do." I think Atreus can't stand the fact that people like myself and other regulars are more popular than they are on "their" server. While I cannot say for certain, this is what their behavior and attitude seem to suggest. With the way they wield their hammers, I don't think I have to explain how childish they are.
We've always made it *really* clear that if someone donates, they should expect nothing in return, because donating to something like this with the expectation of something in return is not the reason to donate. As it is, since our inception, we've run one drive a year, because we don't want to take more than we need. As to the rest: The fact that you think this is about popularity at all says a lot more about you than it does us. If we banned anyone who we feared could possibly be popular in-server, our ban list would be a whole lot longer.
Regarding me: The writing has been on the wall for a long time, and those of you who know me know I didn't deserve it; this was personal. But I'm not mad because it simply cannot be helped. The admins made up their minds months ago and have just been waiting for their opportunity. I was not expecting this, but I can't say I'm surprised.
We seem to agree on one thing: that this was a long time coming. For those who've been around long enough to know who urbandale and amotis were, we considered banning Fungi back then, since he, even at that time, had plenty on his rap sheet (most especially with regard to mic spam or joining urbandale/amotis in creating a negative atmosphere in-server). If this had come from anyone but a regular, such behavior would likely have earned a ban a long time ago, but we always chose to give Fungi the benefit of the doubt.
As Fungi said, we have indeed banned around a 1000 people over the 5+ years that TLD has been around. Take into account that, even with the various steam groups of severe trolls/hackers that had to be purged at times, our ban list is still anywhere between 1/5 and 1/15 as large as other popular groups with rules far more lenient than ours. The Lions' Den ban count seems modest in comparison. We are not banhappy at TLD, as Fungi's case actually proves, since for so long we actually stayed our hands and opted not to ban him. We deliberate a lot over our bans, especially for regulars, and only go through with it when we're confident that those we ban are a detriment to the server.Regarding you: So what can you do? Boycott the server? Boycott the pledge drives? I'm not going to tell you what to do, but you can see for yourself how the admins feel about the regulars. And I'm not just talking about myself either; there have been over a thousand bans on the server, and recently, many of them have been the people you know and love. I don't think that arguing the ban will do anything; if anything it will probably put you on their shit list. So don't do that, as it's not worth it.
However, if this ban has upset you as much as it upset the person who told me about the ban, then don't support the server, financially or otherwise. Quietly.
In closing, please remember that feedback is, as always, not only welcome, but encouraged. We only ask that you remain civil and courteous.